I wanted to open up about something that I’m sure many of us go through – the rollercoaster of self-image. Lately, it feels like I’ve been on a wild ride of emotions, with days where I feel like I’m on top of the world, and others where I’d rather just stay hidden.
Some days, I wake up feeling like I could conquer anything. My reflection in the mirror is a friend, and I’m ready to face the world with confidence. But then, there are those other days, you know? The ones where my reflection seems to highlight all the things I wish I could change. It’s like my self-esteem has a mind of its own.
And don’t even get me started on the selfie saga. Some days, I take one selfie after another, hoping to capture that angle where I feel okay. Other times, I avoid the camera altogether, afraid that it will only confirm what I’m feeling inside.
One of the hundreds of selfies I took today. I’m ashamed!!
Honestly, I’m not even sure where these insecurities come from. It’s like they pop up out of nowhere and decide to take over. It’s frustrating, to say the least. But I’m determined to work on myself, not just externally, but internally too. Because I know that being a positive role model for my little one, Justine, starts with how I view myself.
I do have to say that during the days when the older kids are out of the house and it’s just Justine and me, I’ve been soaking in some precious cuddle time. There’s something truly magical about those cozy moments, where everything else fades away and it’s just us.
Ma petite BineBine
And you know, as I reflect on these ups and downs, I realize that life is a journey, and self-love is a lifelong practice. It’s not always easy, and there will be days when those doubts sneak in. But I’m determined to keep working on finding that balance, embracing the days when I feel fabulous and being gentle with myself on the tougher ones.
As I cuddle up with Justine and contemplate the future, there’s one thing on my mind – the return to work next March. It feels both far away and just around the corner. But for now, I’m soaking up every moment of my maternity leave and focusing on the journey towards self-acceptance.
Sending love and positivity,
Miri
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